August 16, 2009 228th day of 2009

Yesterday was my 43rd birthday! Wow! I know age is just a number but I can't believe I'm 43, I feel a lot older some days. I have been having trouble with my back for some time but I think the massages and the valium at bedtime has really helped a lot. Of course on Thursday night I got bit by a spider (at least that is what the doctor said) I have never woke up in so much pain during the night in my life (except when I went into strong labor with my second child). The kids are back in school, preschool, 7th grade and a senior!!! I really can't believe my baby is a senior. I actually cried the first day of school for her. Taking the preschooler was much easier.

My sister is now finished with her breast cancer treatment. What we thought was going to be a long 7 months seem to fly by. She did so well I'm so very proud of her.

My mom finally moved back to town after being gone since I was 7 years old. That didn't come out right; as a family we moved when I was 7; my sister moved back here when she was 19 I came back when I was 19 and my mom just moved back........I'm so glad to have her here. She will be very helpful with the kids.

06/17/09 168th day of 2009

We have been very busy this summer. Last day of school was May 29th; son left for camp on May 31st; oldest daughter left for vacation on June 1st. My sister had surgery on June 1st; youngest daughter started swimming lesson on June 1st for two weeks; the second week of lessons we also had VBS. There was a class of adults (which I joined) and found very rewarding. I haven't been to VBS in years. This week I've been trying to get youngest signed up for preschool........please pray we get a slot. My car was in the shop for 2 weeks getting a new transmission to the tune of $1800....ewwwwwwww.........thank God hubby paid. Youngest will turn 4 next Saturday so now we have to get ready for the party. Busy busy summertime. Better enjoy because school will start back before we are ready.

05.20.09 140th day of 2009

It's been a while since my last post. I've just not been on top of things since my aunt passed away. I'm still very sad.
My savings is growing a little each month and the credit card use isn't bad either. I've used the Belk card once & Penney's once. I owe less than $200 to Belk but the Penney's card is $700 *yuck*
School is almost over and the kids are very excited. I myself am finding it hard to believe it's the end of May soon. DH just bought a 'new to us' pontoon boat and now my transmission is screwing up........oh well things can't always be easy.

109th day of 2009..........April 19, 2009

My DD went to the prom last night..........she really had a great time. Her date is very sweet and cute. We have a very busy month coming up I need to put everything on a calendar so I don't forget something. Wondering what I'm getting my mom for mother's day. I really don't want to get her anything due to lack of money and the fact she's still making me feel about about the money I owe her. I will be receiving a tax refund the end of the month and believe me she will be paid first. I also have to get DD's 4th birthday party planned before time sneaks up on us. I think I will have the party in the yard with water fun. Thinking I will rent a water slide and have kiddie pools, water guns and sprinklers too.

82nd day of 2009 03.23.09

First off HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SISTER!!!!!

In mourning...........I heard this song when I got in my car today. I haven't heard it before; it's really good. I looked up the title when I got home.........unbelievable. My grandfather always called my aunt Sissy. Strange things happen.

Sissy's Song by Alan Jackson

Why did she have to go
So young I just don't know why
Things happen half the time
Without reason without rhyme
Lovely, sweet young woman
Daughter, wife and mother
Makes no sense to me
I just have to believe

She flew up to Heaven on the wings of angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
And she walks with Jesus and her loved ones waiting
And I know she's smiling saying
Don't worry 'bout me

Love ones left behind
Just trying to survive
And understand the why
Feeling so lost inside
Anger shot straight at God
Then asking for His love
Empty with disbelief
Just hoping that maybe

She flew up to Heaven on the wings of angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
And she walks with Jesus and her loved ones waiting
And I know she's smiling saying
Don't worry 'bout me

It's hard to say goodbye
Her picture in my mind
Will always be of times I'll cherish
And I won't cry 'cause

She flew up to Heaven on the wings of angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
And she walks with Jesus and her loved ones waiting
And I know she's smiling saying
Don't worry 'bout me
Don't worry 'bout me
Don't worry 'bout me

80th day of 2009..................March 21,2009

Why do I feel bad for owing my mom $700 when she spends $600+ on my brother monthly??!! And why does she make be feel bad about owing her this money? I will pay her back, yes it will take a while but she forks out loads of money for him all the time. She's paying $600 for his living arrangements and buying him EVERYTHING he needs. He is an alcoholic (trying to recover, again) and has always depended on her. I have a full time job, husband, kids and struggle every day to make ends meet but she don't help us. WHY?? I sometimes can't even afford to pay for the medicine I need each month. I swear if I had the money I would pay her back today and never ask her for another dime. Who's going to take care of her when she's old? ME ME ME!!! He won't. She thanks me for being her rock, well I'm sick of it all.

74th day of 2009................03.15.2009

In Loving Memory of

Aunt Gaynelle Lawrence

February 14 1945 - March 14 2009

"Far Side Banks of Jordan"

as performed by:

The Statler Brothers

I'll admit my steps are growing wearier each day

Still I've got a certain journey on my mind

Cares of this old world have ceased to make me want to stay

my one regret is leaving you behind.

If it proves to be His will that I am first to cross

somehow I've a feeling it will be

When it comes your time to travel likewise don't feel lost

For I will be the first one that you'll see.

And I'll be waiting on the far side banks of Jordan

I'll be sitting drawing pictures in the sand

And when I see you coming I will rise up with a shout

And come running through the shallow waters reaching for your hand.

Through this life we've labored long to earn our meager fare

It's brought us trembling hands and failing eyes

I'll just rest there on this shore and turn my eyes away

until you come then we'll see paradise.

And I'll be waiting on the far side banks of Jordan

I'll be sitting drawing pictures in the sand

And when I see you coming I will rise up with a shout

And come running through the shallow waters reaching for you hand.

And I'll be waiting on the far side banks of Jordan

I'll be sitting drawing pictures in the sand

And when I see you coming I will rise up with a shout

And come running through the shallow waters reaching for your hand.

And I'll be waiting on the far side banks of Jordan

Gaynelle I love you and will miss you dearly. I am so very sad you are gone but very thankful you didn't suffer in the end. All my hugs & kisses for you.

60th day of 2009 03.01.09

March 1st and we have snow. Yep you read that right SNOW!!! Amazing & beautiful. We don't get much snow in Georgia so we are very excited. The kids had a blast playing and they are out of school tomorrow. I went to the office today and brought work home, I may do some tomorrow or I may just build snowmen. The bad think about snow in Georgia is we have a lot of trees down which also mean power lines down. Luckily we still have power but you just never know.

I've gone 60 days without using a credit card and this month my credit card balance finally decreased! I'm very happy about this.

44th day of 2009 02.13.2009

The dreaded Friday the 13th! Yikes!! heehee

Actually today was a good day. It's pay day! Now I can pay some more debt. I've been 44 days without using a credit card. I even went shopping today and spend cash! My debt is decreasing very slowly but I will win this race eventually.

Aunt #2 will have a biopsy on Tuesday for another 'suspicious' area. Please pray for her. My sister shaved her head today but she is doing very well. Every time I talk with her she tells me how blessed she is.........Awesome!

I hope everyone has a wonderful Valentine day.

37th day of 2009 02.06.09

37 days without using a credit card

Life is going well. Nothing much is going on right now *crossing fingers*. My sister will go for her second chemo treatment on Monday. My aunt had her second chemo treatment this past Monday. She also had her head shaved on Sunday since she was starting to loose it. My granddaughter can now say 'byebye' and she's finally crawling. She is so sweet.

31st day of 2009 01.31.09

I still haven't used a credit card this year. I am very proud of myself. My goal is to pay off as much debt as possible this year. Getting into credit card is so quick and easy but very hard to get it all paid off. I have been using my Shell card but I pay it off each month so I don't really count that as a credit card..........more of a tool. As soon as I get ahead in my checking account I will start using my debit card for gas.

Day #26 of 2009.............01.26.09

It's been a few days since my last post. On the 22nd we took my 11 year old son for his 3 month check up with his endocrinologist. Nothing shocking there........still doing well. On the 24th I took him for a haircut, a much needed haircut!!! He & I then spent the afternoon with Aunt #1; we took her to Wal-Mart for a shopping trip. She bought her some pretty scarfs since her hair has started to fall out. My sister will start her chemo tomorrow so please keep her in your prayers. I'm home today, both my daughters are sick. Will take them to the doctor later today.

ETA:

Almost had a wreck going to the doctor. Only by the grace of God did we not crash. I had a blessing for sure. Girls don't have strep....another blessing!

19th day of 2009 01.19.2009

My daughter's great grandmother died today. I'm here to tell you that woman is stubborn! I have no idea what she was waiting on but she has been on her death bed since for two weeks. I ask for prayers for her family.
I still haven't used a credit card this year; I'm very happy about this. However I 'm not happy about my credit card debt but this is the year to get start the decrease.
My sister will be starting chemo soon as well as Aunt #1, please keep them in your prayers.

16th day of 2009 01.16.09

IT'S FRIDAY!!!
I hope to get some rest this weekend, at least one day anyway. Robert, ex-FIL, was released from the hospital on Thursday, as well as Aunt #2. woot woot They are both feeling much better. I thank God for their healing. I pray Aunt #2 will change her diet and be with us for many years to come.
I hope everyone will have a wonderful weekend.

13th day of 2009 01.13.09

Aunt #2 had a heart cath today, one stint was placed for a 90% blockage. Doctor said she should be home in a day or two and will be good IF she changes her diet. I really don't see that happening since she has known for years she needs to take better care of herself. I hope I'm wrong and this procedure will turn her around.

Aunt #1 had her 5th radiation treatment today. She is doing very well. She will start chemo on the 22nd. I pray her frame of mind stays positive.

I'm so glad payday is coming soon and so is my family; the fridge is bare! I really hate buying groceries but when you need them as bad as we do one must go shopping!!

Quote of the day:
"Take care of your body. It's the only place you have to live."
John Rohn

12th day of 2009 01.12.09

My day today:

Just stepping out of the shower when hubby walks in hands me the phone. I was needed to help get four of my nephews ready for school because my ex-MIL had them at her house and she was called to the hospital. After dropping kids off I proceeded to the hospital to check on Aunt #2 before she was transferred, then I sat with my ex-FIL for awhile and then I visited with ex-husband's grandmother. At 10:00 I picked up Aunt #1 to take her to radiation. Along the way we stop for her regular bathroom break and end up eating breakfast too....yum! We had a nice visit along the way. We drove an hour both ways for a visit that didn't last 10 minutes! Unbelievable quick! I then went back to the hospital to visit again. I feel like a regular Florence Nightingale! Now I'm ready for bed so I can work tomorrow.

11th day of 2009 01.11.09

From here on out I will refer to my aunt with cancer as, Aunt #1, and my aunt with heart trouble is, Aunt #2

Spent the day at the hospital. My daughter's great grandmother is still hanging on; Ant #2 was admitted to the hospital this morning she will have a heart cath tomorrow; my ex FIL was admitted to the same hospital this evening and will have a colonoscopy tomorrow. So much going on it's unbelievable. Tomorrow I will take Aunt #1 for radiation.

I haven't changed my diet and I'm not exercising either, unless walking hospital halls count!

9th day of 2009 01.09.2009

We had an OSHA seminar at work this morning; lasted about 4-5 hours. Then I got a phone call the doctors were calling in the family for my ex-husband's grandmother. I went and picked our daughter up from school and we spent 5 hours at the hospital. When we left she was still hanging on, she's always been kind of stubborn LOL I am just about ready to go to bed. zzzzzzzzzzz

8th day of 2008 01.08.09

Nothing big to report today. I'm proud of myself for something I did yesterday and forgot to post. I placed an order at Victoria Secret using a gift card my mom gave me for Christmas. Using the card I owed just under $4 and I used my debit card instead of my Angel's card. YAY ME!!!


My 3 year old is driving me crazy right now grrrrrrrrr

Seventh day of 2009 01.07.09

Not much happened today. Just another day at work. Went to Wednesday night service. Enjoyed good food, company and message. I found this poem online and it really touched my heart with everything going on within my family right now. I hope you find a blessing below.

You’re Always There for Me
When the world comes crashing in

And chaos rules my mind,

I turn my heart to you, Lord,

And pure, sweet peace I find.
You lift me out of trouble

You comfort me in pain;

You nourish, heal and cleanse me,

Like cool, refreshing rain.
In times of joy and bliss,

When things are going right,

You lift me even higher,

And fill me with delight.
You listen to my prayers;

You hear my every plea;

I’m safe because I know

You’re always there for me.
By Joanna Fuchs
Christian poems can try to communicate the sense of

6th day of 2009 01.06.09

Today was another bad day at work. I get so sick of fixing mistakes other people make.

Went to visit my aunt tonight, she had a doctor appointment today and was told she has lung cancer. Very sad. She also has a brain tumor and will start radiation tomorrow. Anyone reading this please send up prayers.

Some how or another I have to come up with some money. I have a baby shower to attend on Saturday and I have no funds. boohoo

Fifth day of 2009 01.05.09

Back to work today after a 4 day weekend. I don't think it's worth being off the day was so hectic. I forgot to eat breakfast......really didn't have time, ate Subway at lunch just because I had a gift card. My 3 year had dance tonight, hubby took her, he also took the 16 year old to buy some school supplies. I've had a headache for two days........sinus are yuck!!! I have nothing to add or nothing profound to say so good nite!

Fourth day of 2009 01.04.2009

Only four days into 2009 and I already forgot to post yesterday. Yesterday I spent several hours helping my mother clean out my grandmothers home. My grandmother moved into an assisted living home in the summertime and her house has sold, so cleaning out has been taking up a lot of my mother's time. Saturday seemed so long, I went to bed at 9:00 which is very early for me, I usually stay up late on the weekends. Today I went to work for about 5 hours. Over Christmas and New Year I had to fill in for people out on vacation so my work piled up on my desk......really didn't want to go in tomorrow to all that. I really have a bad headache now and think I will rest awhile. I will post more tonight, if anything exciting happens.

Day #2 01.02.2009

WOW! If today lays out what the year is going to be like I'm in trouble.

Took my daughter shopping (she had Christmas money). She even bought my lunch and wouldn't let me spend any money, Thank you child!

This afternoon my sister came over to give me bad news. When she called to say she was coming I thought maybe she had news about our aunt in the hospital, nope. She was coming to tell me she has breast cancer. What a shock. I have no idea how to handle this but together we will. Anyone reading this.......please pray for her.

New Year's Day

First day of the new year........spent the morning at home with my girls. We then had lunch at mother-in-law's house. Hubby & son went to my father-in-law's home, spent the day with him. Took our Christmas tree down, went to the grocery store and not much else. My goals for this year are: diet & exercise (of course) and budget. I'm sure these aren't unfamiliar goals as half the world makes them each and every year. I will start work on the diet/exercise part starting Monday and the budget will start on the 15th (next payday).